Finally it is Friday and it is not cold!
Friday, November 30, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
High heels,long time no see!
This is the first time i wear again my high heels since I have Benjie!! That means it has been three years+ that i haven't touched my collection of high heels! just took a pic to memorize this special day!
Friday, November 09, 2012
My Boy
Time flies! My boy is now 3.5 year old, it is amazing!! What have I done in the past 3 year? I was worrying if he was having speech delay just last december and now he talks like an adult almost! It's just happened over night as it seems. At this age, the challenge is to educate him the right behaviour and words. Also, the challenge to train him to go to toilet on how own. It's a process and it takes a lot of patience. Now he asks almost every station when we are on the bus, mtr or car...he now knows to challenge my bottom line on various things. I am just proud of myself being a mother of this little guy. Constantly I remind my self to enjoy the most at this age with him because when he entered the age of 6 or 7 over, he won't be that sweet and attach to you. He will become teenager and then become a guy. So I need to prepare myself psychologically that he won't come over to kiss my lips or cheeks when he gets older, just like everyone of us.
Do we still kiss our parents now? Do we still hug them? I am sure most of us do not kiss our parents anymore as adult. But I do hug my father, i do hold hands with my father and grandfather. I want to hug them tight!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Label? What's wrong?
I have not written in this blog for a long time...coz I really busy at my work, life and family. A lot of challenges and issues to face everyday non-stop. And there is nothing perfect. I realize God let me experience so many challenges to prepare myself to become stronger though i admit i am a negative and weak person since I have gone through so many issues and burden within these two years since 2009.
Almost a month ago, the doctor has noticed Benjie may have speech delay, now he is 2 yr 9 mos old. I did not spot this problem before until the doctor told me. He wrote a referal letter for us to make appointment at the Gov't assessment centre for his speech delay. So we went and the nurse took test on him with various activities and asked us a lot of questions about the daily habit of Benjie. Without any recommendations or advice, the nurse just told us to wait another 6 months for the next appointment to see the doctor. And she asked us if we can pass along a questionnaire to Benjie's teacher so that this could help to understand Benjie's school life more. She did warn us as most of the parents prefer not to as they afraid the school to discriminate the child, but Benson said yes. So we met with the principal at Benjie's school (not Benjie's teacher tough which I also have no idea), she seems already spot his speech delay and told us that he is the only one in class who could not speak much, the teacher described him as "still like a baby". She even does not try to comfort us to offer any help to improve Benjie's speech problem.
Anyway, after that meeting with the principal, i immediately felt depressed because she makes us feel even worrying. But i was thinking, every kid is different and their learning pace are difference too, other kids can do it does not mean my kid MUST also do it at that pace. He only goes to school for not more than 3 months, why not giving him more time to see, my expectation is 6 months, not 3 months. The only positive thing is if he really have speech delay or autism, if we found it out now, we can take immediate and appropirate action to help him out at early stage.
I feel bad for myself, Benjie is such a cute boy, why him? The most worrying thing is not whether he is speech delay or having autism, it's how people around him labeling him or discriminating him...will he be treated as problematice kid? will he be treated fairly at school? will the teachers help him with proper action? Seems so helpess to me...I read a lot of information about the speech delay and autism, i personally do not feel that he is autism, i only recognize him may have speech delay, but there is a lot of other kids who only start to talk better in the age of 3, so why not wait and see?
I also feel very bad as my hubby does not know how to handle his emotion too. On that day after the meeting with the principal, both of us were in the bad mood coz it's very discouraging to hear the principal' s comments. He also lost his temper on me without any reason. He is so fierce and I really hate it, sometimes i think how can i tolerate this anymore? But when i think of Benjie, I know i can survive for him, I need to be stronger.
Coming this Friday we shall take him to the test at private assessment centre, at the same time we are lining up to make appointment at some non-private assessment and help centre for this, pray to God that we shall have fair and immediate help if he really got the problem.
Almost a month ago, the doctor has noticed Benjie may have speech delay, now he is 2 yr 9 mos old. I did not spot this problem before until the doctor told me. He wrote a referal letter for us to make appointment at the Gov't assessment centre for his speech delay. So we went and the nurse took test on him with various activities and asked us a lot of questions about the daily habit of Benjie. Without any recommendations or advice, the nurse just told us to wait another 6 months for the next appointment to see the doctor. And she asked us if we can pass along a questionnaire to Benjie's teacher so that this could help to understand Benjie's school life more. She did warn us as most of the parents prefer not to as they afraid the school to discriminate the child, but Benson said yes. So we met with the principal at Benjie's school (not Benjie's teacher tough which I also have no idea), she seems already spot his speech delay and told us that he is the only one in class who could not speak much, the teacher described him as "still like a baby". She even does not try to comfort us to offer any help to improve Benjie's speech problem.
Anyway, after that meeting with the principal, i immediately felt depressed because she makes us feel even worrying. But i was thinking, every kid is different and their learning pace are difference too, other kids can do it does not mean my kid MUST also do it at that pace. He only goes to school for not more than 3 months, why not giving him more time to see, my expectation is 6 months, not 3 months. The only positive thing is if he really have speech delay or autism, if we found it out now, we can take immediate and appropirate action to help him out at early stage.
I feel bad for myself, Benjie is such a cute boy, why him? The most worrying thing is not whether he is speech delay or having autism, it's how people around him labeling him or discriminating him...will he be treated as problematice kid? will he be treated fairly at school? will the teachers help him with proper action? Seems so helpess to me...I read a lot of information about the speech delay and autism, i personally do not feel that he is autism, i only recognize him may have speech delay, but there is a lot of other kids who only start to talk better in the age of 3, so why not wait and see?
I also feel very bad as my hubby does not know how to handle his emotion too. On that day after the meeting with the principal, both of us were in the bad mood coz it's very discouraging to hear the principal' s comments. He also lost his temper on me without any reason. He is so fierce and I really hate it, sometimes i think how can i tolerate this anymore? But when i think of Benjie, I know i can survive for him, I need to be stronger.
Coming this Friday we shall take him to the test at private assessment centre, at the same time we are lining up to make appointment at some non-private assessment and help centre for this, pray to God that we shall have fair and immediate help if he really got the problem.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
伴變 - a song from William So...it's really what i feel now
作曲:雷頌德 作詞:黃偉文 監製/編曲:雷頌德
任我想 我亦未曾想過 早上岸獲救的我 會突然重墮這冰河
愛是極親密而生疏 可以化為神仙 可以變作惡魔
一心兩極哪到我揣摩
負我的怎會殺我 怎會變作我的終極大禍
你從前還曾經拯救過我 是否我信仰的都背棄我
快樂後患大多 這段路給了我很多
這段路走到最終竟然毀了我
這段路走到最終反而傷透我
事過境遷亦難以負荷
同眠的你 為何揮刀刺我
同行的你 為何都關涉我
當天若真正愛過 怎會變作我的終極大禍
你從前還曾經親吻過我 是否我信仰的都背棄我
願這歌 記下舊時的錯 不要像被騙的我 信任誰能為我掌舵
記住愛比恨難捉摸 可以化為童話 可以變作挽歌 這點領會晚了有幾多
任我想 我亦未曾想過 早上岸獲救的我 會突然重墮這冰河
愛是極親密而生疏 可以化為神仙 可以變作惡魔
一心兩極哪到我揣摩
負我的怎會殺我 怎會變作我的終極大禍
你從前還曾經拯救過我 是否我信仰的都背棄我
快樂後患大多 這段路給了我很多
這段路走到最終竟然毀了我
這段路走到最終反而傷透我
事過境遷亦難以負荷
同眠的你 為何揮刀刺我
同行的你 為何都關涉我
當天若真正愛過 怎會變作我的終極大禍
你從前還曾經親吻過我 是否我信仰的都背棄我
願這歌 記下舊時的錯 不要像被騙的我 信任誰能為我掌舵
記住愛比恨難捉摸 可以化為童話 可以變作挽歌 這點領會晚了有幾多
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