Speechless

Lost my voice for 2 days. Feeling helpless and uesless...not able to work properly at work, home or anywhere. Everyone told me "Don't speak.", my client said "Oh, you lost your voice, take care". I replied "thank q..." not sure if they heard what i have said.

Friend reminds me today "Silence is gold". This can be true in some situations...but when will I speak again? That's worrying...I am speechless...

A choice

Last week I had a horrible experience in the lift. When I was going out for lunch with Chu Goo Luck on the lift. The lift suddenly jumped from 13th floor to 10th floor and shaking. I was so panic and started to grasp my colleague's arm, I am so scarced. At that moment, my mind was thinking "Will I die here?" for a second. Thankful to God, we were safe at last by stepping out from the lift on 9th floor.

After arrived safely on earth, Chu Goo Luck said to me "Life is unpredictable like this, you never know what happen to you tomorrow or the next few minutes, why not choose to stay happy and enjoy things now?" . Indeed, a word of wisdom to remind myself.

Lose weight

I found myself lose weight these few weeks coz now I can fit into a tiny skirt and tiny jeans which I was not able to wear them before. Moreover, I found that my current pants are loose to wear. To certain point, that's good news- i can wear those clothes that I thought I could not wear them before. The bad news is I lose weight - I look like a skinny skeleton more now.

You will never found how pressure can affect a person's health. So try not to give too much pressure to yourself. I guess I am the victim of giving myself too much pressure on work, study and life.

Dear Friends, no matter what, I wish we all can stay healthy and happy. Love yourself.

Woman/Man in love

When woman in love, she looks sweet and pretty (at least in most cases it is true).
When man in love, he looks carefree and fat (at least half the cases it is true).

When woman in love, she accepts all "yuk ma" words without hesitation.
When man in love, he speaks all those "yuk ma" words without hesitation.

When woman in love, she thinks the world is just two of them.
When man in love, he thinks the world is too small...

Love needs mutual understanding, patience, time, effort to keep.
Love is carefree, warm, trust, honest, respect...right?

Boss and Me

Working late at office tonight with my boss. Since 6pm to 8pm, we have not talked to each other and we seems like not noticing each other even existed. Then he suddenly came over to me and said "Oh, I can't stand anymore." and I said "Why are u still here?". He looked at me with a surprise expression "I was working!". I said "Me too". Ha ha ha...then he told me to leave soon and asked me to take time off soon (but he adds on that there is no way I can get it next week coz my Director is coming to visit us). So...it's a kind of "bullshit" between us...anyway, I just don't know what is he doing in office...may be it's the "Strategic" things, who knows?

Please...

Please shut your mouth if you are talking nonsense.
Please say yes or keep quiet if you have no idea.
Please close your eyes if you don't want to see it.
Please try not to feel too much if you are too sensitive.
Please keep your words if you did say it.
Please be good to the ones if you really love them.
Please be honest if you are not a lier.
Please stay happy if life is too short.

Please, please, please...

Brainwash

Brainwash you are going to have a better future with you current job.
Brainwash you are going to have a nice home to stay in the coming years.
Brainwash you are confident to face everyone in this world.
Brainwash you are pretty and intelligent.
Brainwash you are friendly and nice.
Brainwash you are honest and sincere.
Brainwash you will have someone (at least 1) to understand you in this world.
Brainwash you will always feel peaceful and happy.

Note: Brainwash is only be used when you find that you are not able to do something successfully. It is only a tool, please do not brainwash yourself that this is the truth.

Simple World

My world is simple and I always live in a simple world, my family, my friends, they are all genuine and simple. I am tired and feeling helpless in handling complicated things in the complicated world. No more mind game. I am freaking tired...I have been thinking too much for myself and others, too much that I can't breathe. I care too much, care too much if I can affect others, care too much if I let people down, care if I make people unhappy...

Too much...too much...I want to go home, the place that I can feel safe.

New Year Plan 2006

Speculating my plan for 2006. Time flies so fast and I realized I have gone through a lot of things this year in 2005. I met so many new people, returned to God, finished a lof of assignments, travel, nervous breakdown, depression, broke, etc...ha ha.

Now I have a new year plan in 2006 - it's learning some new hobbies!! May be when a person is getting older, we need to learn new things to keep going...ballroom dancing, salsa, tennis, golf, swimming, guitar, drums, painting, blah blah blah...

That's all I want to do...you may think what a big plan!!! Little achievements can make me happy. What is your new year plan?

Better Man

"Better Man" Lyrics

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm, in pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old. Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

HE

There is a song that always come to my mind...the pieces of melody and lyrics always pop out to my mind when I am quietly thinking...

HE can turn the tide and calm the angry sea.
.........
He keeps watch all through all of your lonely nights.
HE still find the time to hear a child's first prayer.
.........
Though it makes HIM sad to see the way we live.
HE always say I Forgive. I Forgive.

It's the best and most touching song I ever heard when I was in secondary school. God forgive us again and again. Where else you could find a love like this in the world?

Just don't know how to find out the whole piece of lyrics. Cibi crab & TY, I know you must remember this song, right? I am sure we sang this song when we were in the choir...

Hairy Crabssssssss

Just a week ago I had a fabulous dinner at home eating Hairy Crabs. It's the best season to eat hairy crab now. We bought the big ones and there are so many "Ko" inside...i finished 4 crabs and could not finish any other dishes.

I finally found eating hairy crabs can be exhausting. It needs special techniques and tools to eat it if you want to enjoy it. Special thanks to Pilot for helping me to open the 4 crabs and to my dearest Father as he is the one who treats me this fabulous dinner. Be thankful!

信還是不信?

要真正信任一個人絕對不容易, 信任是需要雙方付出effort 去印證. 你若要別人信任, 必先要行動去証明你是可靠的. 沒有可靠的行動, 再說任何美麗的說話也是枉然. 人實在是善變的, 大家請努力, 認真誠實的去對待你身邊的人, 不要令他們對你失去信心啊!