Simple World

My world is simple and I always live in a simple world, my family, my friends, they are all genuine and simple. I am tired and feeling helpless in handling complicated things in the complicated world. No more mind game. I am freaking tired...I have been thinking too much for myself and others, too much that I can't breathe. I care too much, care too much if I can affect others, care too much if I let people down, care if I make people unhappy...

Too much...too much...I want to go home, the place that I can feel safe.

New Year Plan 2006

Speculating my plan for 2006. Time flies so fast and I realized I have gone through a lot of things this year in 2005. I met so many new people, returned to God, finished a lof of assignments, travel, nervous breakdown, depression, broke, etc...ha ha.

Now I have a new year plan in 2006 - it's learning some new hobbies!! May be when a person is getting older, we need to learn new things to keep going...ballroom dancing, salsa, tennis, golf, swimming, guitar, drums, painting, blah blah blah...

That's all I want to do...you may think what a big plan!!! Little achievements can make me happy. What is your new year plan?

Better Man

"Better Man" Lyrics

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm, in pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old. Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

HE

There is a song that always come to my mind...the pieces of melody and lyrics always pop out to my mind when I am quietly thinking...

HE can turn the tide and calm the angry sea.
.........
He keeps watch all through all of your lonely nights.
HE still find the time to hear a child's first prayer.
.........
Though it makes HIM sad to see the way we live.
HE always say I Forgive. I Forgive.

It's the best and most touching song I ever heard when I was in secondary school. God forgive us again and again. Where else you could find a love like this in the world?

Just don't know how to find out the whole piece of lyrics. Cibi crab & TY, I know you must remember this song, right? I am sure we sang this song when we were in the choir...

Hairy Crabssssssss

Just a week ago I had a fabulous dinner at home eating Hairy Crabs. It's the best season to eat hairy crab now. We bought the big ones and there are so many "Ko" inside...i finished 4 crabs and could not finish any other dishes.

I finally found eating hairy crabs can be exhausting. It needs special techniques and tools to eat it if you want to enjoy it. Special thanks to Pilot for helping me to open the 4 crabs and to my dearest Father as he is the one who treats me this fabulous dinner. Be thankful!

信還是不信?

要真正信任一個人絕對不容易, 信任是需要雙方付出effort 去印證. 你若要別人信任, 必先要行動去証明你是可靠的. 沒有可靠的行動, 再說任何美麗的說話也是枉然. 人實在是善變的, 大家請努力, 認真誠實的去對待你身邊的人, 不要令他們對你失去信心啊!

A day to remember

Per someone request, I need to remind myself to remember today. Mr. Sound Chai Keung has passed me a wet tissue and a dry tissue for me to clean my mouth after enjoying a tea set today. Be thankful!

Chocolate on Chocolate

These two days I just feel like eating chocolate and could not stop myself from taking it everyday. Yesterday I found a very very delicious chocolate cake at the cafe at Island Shangri-la - the chocolate cake is called "Frou Frou" and it's chocolate outside, chocolate mousse and clunchy biscuit inside. It taste so nice and not too sweet. I love it so much!!

Coincidentally, while I am hunger for chocolate these days, my professor from the States has bought me a small box of assorted chocolate this week, they are so lovely and delicious. How can you get away from this temptation?

@office

Instead of everything go blank for me yesterday, I started to concentrate sooo much @ office. I stucked there until 11pm tonight...trying to meet the deadline. Since my CPU is burning, I wrote down the wrong date in one document to my client this morning, and she called me and laugh with me together because she knows my CPU is burning...we laughed for over 1 minutes on the phone!
I love this client.

Go Blank

Works keep piling up on the desk. Thousands of emails to reply everyday and you are so sure that they are never-ending. Talked to colleague and we are not too sure what are we talking about together, we are so swamped.

Found that at one point today, I just sit still in front of my computer and my mind went blank for a few minutes. My CPU was burning and it could not process at the moment...needs to be rebooted I guess.

Looking forward

I am looking forward to Autumn. Weather gets cooler and I will feel happier.
I am looking forward to December. Work is less and I can take vacation.
I am looking forward to graduate. No more worries and pressure.
I am looking forward to vacation. No work and only play.
I am looking forward to 2006. I think it will be a new start for me. Can I?

SMS by mistake

今早正當等緊早餐之際, 突然收到SMS, 係我一個住在印尼的一個朋友仔, 佢個SMS 係用印尼文打"kis,...". 嚇得我呀! 有個kis字...唔洗一分鐘佢再send SMS來道歉, 佢手快快send 錯SMS 比我.
我唔知点解重好開心佢send 錯野比我, 錯有錯着, 我地咪互相問候一番, 講下Disney HK...錯send的SMS也將人拉近一点呢!

失眠++

昨晚我在牀上又眼光光, 左轉右轉還是眼光光. 差不多睡着又醒番, 於是咪走去開個MP3聽歌...模模糊糊咁又到起牀時間. 唔知呢次失眠係咪因為晚餐飲了中國茶呢? 定係我唔多妥?

温柔的你

昨天不約而同被兩個新認識朋友讚我"gentle and nice"...真的多謝她們! 我自己也在想, 我真的温柔好nice 嗎? 你話呢? 哈哈...我想我都pass啦, 以前做過一些personality test, 我是一個peacemaker同注重people aspect 的人, 所以一點也不"三尖八角". 但温柔這兩個字着實是一個好大的compliment, 不容易呢!

I am tired!

我真的很倦, 說不出的倦…還有很多...
很想出外走走, 跟我的好安達一起去! My wish is as simple as that!! 中秋節又到啦, 又係時候食月餅…我要無簧白蓮蓉架!

流沙 Everything's Gone

流沙
詞：娃娃 曲：陶吉吉

並不是真的路過而已
也不是真的不會想你
全都不是真的是騙自己
其實還愛你愛著你

我以為我早想清楚 不由自主恍恍惚惚
又走回頭路 再看一眼有過的幸福

愛情好像流沙我不掙扎
隨它去吧 我不害怕
愛情好像流沙 心裡的牽掛
不願放下 OH BABY 讓我這樣吧

愛情好像流沙 我不說話
等待黑暗 讓淚能落下
愛情好像流沙 明知該躲它
無法自拔 OH BABY 是我太傻

是一再的做 一再的錯不由我
我一步一步一步一步 慢慢走向流沙

一隻我聽極都唔厭的歌, 一隻我重覆聽到殘的CD...

栗子頭黑眼線

每日早上行走堅道的巴士上, 有一位上班的斯文男子, 每天都gel一個栗子形的髮形, 再看多兩眼, 他雙眼畫了深黑色的眼線...Jean Paul Gautier?

今天又是新的開始, 要努力收拾心情做野啦! 雖然有倦意, 也要努力過每一天, 要開心D至得! Hopefully!

衷心感激

好開心呀! 多謝各位Friends 支持我, 我沒有想過你地咁爽快就向我 say yes 架! 我真係好感動啊! 30 號見啦! I love you!

無題

我很少會害怕一個人 (以前大學時期也遇過一次), 我的直覺一直都蠻準, 這次確實令我很不自然, 那種threatening 的感覺是很強烈, 我會手震想躲開. 我跟自己說 no big deal, 自問從來沒有主勳去找煩惱但它偏要衝着我來. 由它go ahead 啦!Let the bird fly…釋懷了吧! 我真的再沒有多餘精力去應付了, 我很倦啊!

The Real You

Will you hide your "real you" from showing them out to others? I never hide my real me and my feelings coz' I don't know how to pretend. And one day I found myself too "crystal clear" to others, that's my weakness...sigh!